I decided to write in here whenever i feel like it.I never kept a diary as a kid and I feel i was trying to make this into one i cant just write down my day on some web page it doesnt benefit me because when i look back on the things i dind't like i hate myself after. i dont wanna be reminded of my mistakes,
I'm making myself sick to my stomach over you and i dont know why. I wanna rip myself apart when i see your status but when i talk to you i could never do that. fucking lame dude. i'm different when i talk to you and im happy but when im not talking to you im back to my oldself..im just in the best of fucking moods right now :| everytime you care it makes it worse and i just grow more upset. i wanna tell you but its not in my place so lies all around for now....
